Dependency
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What does it mean to actually live a life that is free?
I have been following Jesus seriously for 12 1/2 years, and as many encounters as I have had, and as much freedom as I have found, I have realized that the hope and promises of the Bible many times seem close enough to touch, but not actualized.
In the past couple of weeks, I feel that the Lord has brought me to a new place of dependency. I place where he is showing me why his goodness has only been tasted, not consumed. My journey over the past few years has had me dig at the roots of my actions and beliefs. It has been enlightening, and even helpful. But the revelation of dependency wasn't a part of the equation. Oh, sure, I've heard the cliche's and even spoken them about being dependent on the Lord. But somehow, I would confess, find a solution, and then use it to try to administer my freedom.
The beauty of this life with Christ is that we don't have to clean ourselves up. When we recognize something that needs to change, all we have to do is confess our weakness, and He really does come.
I am engaging on a different kind of walk with Him. It feels raw, and even familiar. As if I have touched this place many times before. But for some reason, setting up my habitation here hasn't happened.
But....now. I. Have.
I have been following Jesus seriously for 12 1/2 years, and as many encounters as I have had, and as much freedom as I have found, I have realized that the hope and promises of the Bible many times seem close enough to touch, but not actualized.
In the past couple of weeks, I feel that the Lord has brought me to a new place of dependency. I place where he is showing me why his goodness has only been tasted, not consumed. My journey over the past few years has had me dig at the roots of my actions and beliefs. It has been enlightening, and even helpful. But the revelation of dependency wasn't a part of the equation. Oh, sure, I've heard the cliche's and even spoken them about being dependent on the Lord. But somehow, I would confess, find a solution, and then use it to try to administer my freedom.
The beauty of this life with Christ is that we don't have to clean ourselves up. When we recognize something that needs to change, all we have to do is confess our weakness, and He really does come.
I am engaging on a different kind of walk with Him. It feels raw, and even familiar. As if I have touched this place many times before. But for some reason, setting up my habitation here hasn't happened.
But....now. I. Have.
